Self love Gender Traitor

They say. I Hear.: Fighting the Voices Within.

 They say: You’re so beautiful

                I hear:   Your eyes are so small.

They say: You’re so smart.

                I hear: You suck at math.

They say: You have a great smile. 

               I hear: You're ugly when you don't smile. 

They say: You’re so funny

                I hear: They’re laughing at you.

They say: You’re so athletic.

                I hear: You clumsy fuck.

They say: You’re so kind.

                I hear: You’re a doormat.

They say: You’re so certain of what you want.

                I hear: You have no idea what you’re doing.

They say: You’re so confident.

                I hear: You’re a coward.

They say: You’re going to be alright.

                I hear: You should just stay asleep.

They say: You are special.

                I hear: You’re nothing.

They say: You can trust me.

                I hear: They’re lying to you.

They say: You should always put yourself first.

                I hear: You’re so selfish.

They say: You deserve the best.

                I hear: You are worthless.

They say: I just want you to be happy.

                I hear: They don't want you.

They say: Anyone is lucky to have you.

                I hear: She’ll never choose you.

They say: I’ll never leave you.

                I hear: They’re already gone.

They say: Jesus loves you.

                I hear: If only you weren’t gay.

They say: I love you.

                I hear: Conditionally.

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Note from the Author: 

As most of you know, this isn't my typical blog format but when I sat down to write this, I couldn't put it into enough words to even form a complete paragraph. The feelings came out in this format and I decided to just leave them be. I think everyone has a few "demons" they fight pretty regularly. These are some of mine. I hope it helps anyone who is struggling with some of the same things I do on a daily basis. 

Gender Traitor operates as an open platform for all to share their stories, experiences and feelings. If you have a poemblog, or just want to share something, submission are always open. Send us an email under the Contact Us tab on the site and we'll be happy to post it on your behalf. Want to remain anonymous? No problem, just let us know that as well. 

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2 comments

Kacey, I have always thought you are a smart and beautiful woman. No hidden agenda, and I tend to be blunt. I just wanted you to know that I always have your back, and although I went thru Liberty with you, I do not share all of the (so called) morals from there. I like you and accept you as you are. BTW my daughter has said some of the same things in your poem. So I hear you…

Mike

You’re an inspiration

Andrea Boccia

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